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Friday, September 14, 2012

I Love You Just The Way You Are.

I accomplished something really great this week.

I ran.


I'm okay with that because I plan on running again...eventually. LOL 

No, actually I am planning on going tomorrow. I was supposed to run yesterday--it's an every other day thing--but I was too upset and grumpy (probably a good time to do it) and I didn't. I will tomorrow though, because while it didn't feel *Totally Awesome* it also didn't kill me and I felt good that I was DOING SOMETHING.

The day is not over and I'm hoping to get some strength training in before bed.

My eating was not so great.

I did amazing for three days. Then things got tough and I made cookies. Cookies are probably my biggest weakness. No. Well, actually, peanut butter cups are my Biggest weakness and I made peanut butter Oatmeal cookies. I received a chocolate bar for my birthday and I found that in the fridge so I chopped it up and added it to the cookies. Yum. They were really good. Baked they were still good. :D

I can do this. It's not that I don't think I can do it, because I know I can. Really it's about making a choice and sticking to it. I have not made that choice. I want to lose about 25-30 pounds. Some of you will say That's too much, and you might be right but I'd like to "risk" it. IYKWIM.

Here's the thing.

I believe in loving your body as it is. I don't know that I Can do that but I believe in it. 

I think I can I think I can I think I can...

At one point I just decided that I was going to be fat and that was that. I didn't like it but it didn't mean I had to look like a frump in sweat suits all the time. I still fussed a little with my diet and tried to "work out" because I wanted to be Healthy. That is important. I know I have issues with sugar (carbs) because of how I feel when I have too many of them. Sluggish. No, really, like a slimy, slow slug. Blah.

I didn't like my body but I embraced it.

I bought a wardrobe in My size and I was "cute."

Then I found this plan, Metabolism Miracle, which was GEARED toward people with issues like mine. She specifically identifies the things that people with Metabolism B or sluggish metabolism suffer from and my checklist was nearly 100%. 

That made a Lot of sense to me!

So I tried it. Reluctantly. It took me three or more "starts" before I made it past the first three days (it's the first three days that will kill you!), then it wasn't hard anymore. I learned the lifestyle. 

And the pounds came off!

It was a miracle.

I lost 40 lbs. total. 

Then I got Shingles. Twice. The second time I was delayed in getting treatment (taking the anti-viral that keeps it from getting worse) and I waited too long (partly from a false diagnosis). That delay turned into Fibromyalgia. I started putting on weight because I was "comfort" feeding. 

I think it started really last Christmas because I pretty much ate an entire Pecan Pie by myself. 

If you've never had my mom's Pecan Pie then be quiet, otherwise...

Also I found this recipe for Death by Chocolate aka the Chocolate Chip Cookie Oreo Brownie.

So. Yeah. I put on 20 pounds--ish.

Now my cute Skinny Clothes I got (wow, I need to do my Thrift Store SQUEE experiences in a blog! lol) don't fit.

Apparently I'm average. I'm a size 14.

I want to be a size 8. 

I'm 5'5" so it's not crazy. And I have tiny bones. 

We'll see. Because, really, it's about being healthy. 

Truth is though I love me just the way I am, I just don't feel healthy or "fit" and I know what to do to change that.

Oh yeah.
Just Do It!

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